He's going to kill me

[doctortara]

Lachie is my foxy diamond Get your sweetheart's pet name @ Quiz Me

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[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Foxy diamond ain't such a bad soundin' pet name.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's manly enough. He's going to definitely get his knickers ina twist about the 'Foxy' part.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Pretty sure he wouldn't wanna be a 'fair' or 'ordinary' diamond. What else is there? Butch diamond? Beefy diamond?

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

See, when you put it like that, the diamond is probably not going to cut it either. He'd be wanting 'Tiger' or 'Hot Stuff'.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Those are definitely great choices. I can see him likin' those. Maybe he can be 'Hot Tiger'?

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

He's that alright. Shame I can't appreciate it right now. I admire from afar and he gets all antsy, which leads to sulky.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Men and their sulkiness is just sad. But cute... So ya ain't doin' anythin' with Lachlan right now? I'm tryin' to prepare myself. Can't believe I got like a month to go.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie, we can't. Not for six weeks after the birth or we risk infections and all sort of other crap stuff. But there is also the added factor of a tiny person who likes to demand our attention by screaming at all hours of the day and night. I'm too tired to even think about sticking body parts into each other. And don't prepare too much. Our wee one came six weeks early. He shouldn't even be here yet.

But you'll love it. You'll love every minute of it.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Six weeks? Well, six weeks I can deal with. Probably for the best anyway since my control's non-existent. I don't wanna land him back in hospital again. Not when he's awake finally. Hey, ya got yourself a Christmas baby. I think that's pretty cool.

I'm just glad the Doc will get to share it with me. I was really worried for a while there.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

It's a long six weeks... for the daddy. Actually, my beautiful other half has been very patient. He and I haven't been intimate since Mexico. I lost my sex drive late in the pregnancy and turned into an obsessive compulsive cleaning freak. I didn't even realise anything was amiss until my waters broke. Then the next thing I know, he's just here and he's ours.

Lachie said Chase is doing quite well so soon after waking. In pain, though. That's not uncommon at all. Chase is a strong wee thing. He always has been. No way would he miss his daughter's birth.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

I'm sure he'll let ya make up for it once you're feelin' ready. Or it could be because he's all happy bein' a dad and dotin' on Riley. I ain't turned into a cleanin' freak. Although it's never too late. Mostly I'm still just a black hole for food. He really is beautiful, sugar.

I'm glad he's strong. I don't know what I woulda done otherwise. I don't think he can wait to be in Lachlan's shoes and feel fatherhood for himself.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

I hope I go back to being ready. Right now, I get more excited over a nice cup of tea. I really can't explain what flicked the switch inside me. It's just like my body knew our angel was coming and I had to prepare for him. I didn't know that's what I was doing, but I drove everyone crazy with it. I dusted the Christmas tree and rearranged all the cupboards in alphabetically and colour-coded order. He is. He's just... I don't ever seem to have enough words. Sometimes I catch myself just sitting there touching his little fingers and toes in awe that he even exists or that he came out of me.

I do understand. That fear is not something I would ever wish on anyone. But it will be worth it.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

I don't think ya should feel bad for not feelin' ready. It's not gonna be the end of the world if your cuppa tea is the best thing. Nothin' beats a good cup of tea. Still can't believe ya dusted the Christmas tree. I can't wait for that feelin' of awe. I'm still holdin' my breath about bein' able to touch our little girl.

I know ya do... and thanks. It's nice havin' people that understand.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

It's not quite the same, but I worried I would make Riley sick. That he would be born a diabetic. I worried he wouldn't have ten toes or his nose would be stuck to the side of his head. I worried I wouldn't know how to change diapers or that he wouldn't want to breast feed. But you take it in your stride, sweetheart. No matter what happens, you're still her Mummy and you'll deal with that whatever it takes. You'll adjust and she'll love you no matter what.

Chase is in the same room Lachie was. It brought back a lot of pain for me, but I didn't let myself run and hide. That's an easy thing to do.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Guess everyone worries that there's gonna be somethin' with their baby... only I'm more worried it's somethin' with me. I can't even touch my own husband right now. I still don't know how I'm gonna go with changin' diapers and stuff. You might have to show me some things when the time comes. I'll do anythin' for her, so I'll always adjust.

Oh Lordy... I didn't know. I'm so sorry. You okay?

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

That's what I'm saying, sweetie. It changes. You stop thinking about yourself as soon as the baby comes and you just do it, no matter what. Because you have to. That little bairn doesn't know anything... she will need you everything. You can come over and spend some time with Riley and me if you like. Don't be worrying about your skin. I trust you with him.

I'm okay. It's still very hard. It's where he nearly... well, it's where he died. Where Chase brought him back. I can only imagine it must be on his mind a little, too. He blamed himself that Lachie even crashed like he did.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Ya sure? I don't wanna intrude. I mean... I was tryin' to do that before but I couldn't stop worryin' 'bout the Doc. But I wanna try and get used to the baby thing.

Oh, Fuck... I swear I didn't plan it that way. They just put him where they put him. He did? I don't think he ever mentioned that.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

Of course I'm sure. Lachlan's passed out upstairs and it's just me and the apple of my eye. He's a good Daddy. He took the night shift last night and got up for every cry. If you're okay to come, you're always welcome. To be honest, I couldn't ever turn down a wee bit of help.

Hey, it's okay. It's the closest bay to the doctors, so it's best. He did. House was Lachie's main doctor but he was admitted under Chase in the ICU. There was an allergy to anaesthetic and no one knew about it. When they tried to put him under again, that's when he nearly died. Chase is probably just sitting on it because he doesn't want to bring up old memories.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

In that case I'll take ya up on it. The ICU's gettin' kinda sick of me. I'm probably close to gettin' banned. One nurse keeps givin' me the evil eye.

Maybe he needs to talk about it? Ya can't hang onto somethin' like that... And if anyone's gonna understand the guilt, it's me.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

It'll be a wee bit of experience for you. Riley's a bit of a grizzly babe but on the upside, he loves cuddles, which I can't resist giving him all the time. Is she a redhead with a big nose? If so, she had a thing for Chase about two years ago.

You could try to broach it with him. I always try to nudge a little away at Lachie if I can tell something is on his mind. He doesn't always open up straight away but he knows I'm there to listen if he wants to.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Cuddles are always good. I can't believe one of those things is gonna come outta me. We're both gonna have babies! Yeah, she is. And is there anyone in that hospital that ain't had a thing for my husband?

I will when he's feelin' a bit better. Can't really blame him for feelin' like crap right now. He needs some time to get his head together.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

I still can't believe it came out of me. I mean, oh, I certainly remember how much it bloody hurt and how big he felt when I was giving birth, but when I saw him, I couldn't believe he was so tiny. I felt like I would break him. Not a lot. Remind me to tell you about the time he asked me to pretend I was dating him.

When you wake up from a coma, you kind of feel like your brain has fallen out of your ears. You can even be sitting there listening to someone talk but find yourself wondering if they are actually talking. And everything hurts because the body is weak. But it will only be a few days before he regains his strength. Eating is very important.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

So it really does hurt? I mean, of course it hurts, but it hurts? Did ya take any drugs? I'll definitely remember to ask. That's a story I so wanna know.

He doesn't wanna eat the hospital food... Can I sneak him stuff?

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

I won't lie. It hurts like a bloody bitch. And it's not just pain, it's long pain. Riley was ten hours, but they can go for over thirty hours. Ten hours was long enough. I was ready to pass out and give up, but Lachie started to sing to me at the end and it pushed me over the edge. Probably not the most conventional choices of songs, but it was enough for me to know he was there. But then he was out and we heard that cry... it was all worth it to hear that cry.

The hospital stuff is important in the first few days. His stomach hasn't been digesting anything but liquid for over two weeks. He needs to try and get that working again. But after that, small amounts of anything not too junky would be fine. I won't tell anyone ;)

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Wow... that's pretty damn scary. I know I'd really wanna hear that cry too, but I'm not sure I want the Doc singin' at me. I really don't want it to be thirty hours either. That's... that's way too long.

So I gotta make him eat that icky lookin' cereal stuff? He's gonna hate me.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

I was desperate and exhausted and feeling sick by that point. The pain comes in waves... contractions... which get closer together and more painful as the baby gets closer to birth. It's the waves that is the exhausting part. And man, I was verbally abusing my poor boy and cursing every extremity on his body for putting me through that. I never thought I would be one of those girls, but when you're there and you're going through it, it's pretty intense. Plus you're full of hormones during the birth and it's hard to even think straight. There's nothing nice or attractive about it.

He needs to to try. It took me a week to get Lachie to take it when he first woke up. First three days he kept throwing it up after he ate it it, the next four days he didn't want a bar of it. It's not nice.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

I really don't wanna be one of those girls either, but I guess I'm not really gonna have much say about it on the day. Poor Lachlan... Poor Doc. All they wanna be is daddies and then they get that. Although the way I hear it that moment when they see 'em kinda makes up for it. It's pretty fuckin' amazin' all this stuff.

I'll work on it. It'll probably take time. It really is gross lookin' stuff.

[doctortara.livejournal.com]

See, I love my husband more than life itself, but birth turned me into a monster. He was so amazing, though. He just took it all and never left my side. It's a miracle I didn't break his hand how much he was squeezing it. I would do it all again in a heartbeat, but well, we're blessed once and that's a miracle in itself. I was stunned enough when they told me he was a boy but when I saw him and saw that he had Lachie's hair, I lost it. I will never, ever forget that moment. My boys are my heart and soul.

It tastes gross too. Kind of like wet cardboard. But it's good for you.

[justalilcontact.livejournal.com]

Oh Lordy... I'm gonna have to be covered durin' the birth, or at least the doctors are gonna have to be suited up. Last thing I need is someone passin' out on me. And I can't hold the Doc's hand... not normally. So there's gonna have to be gloves. I think it's great ya had a miracle Christmas baby boy. And I still say that Riley and Baby Girl Chase should be betrothed. Although I got a feelin' the Doc still ain't gonna let her have sex. Ever. I'll have to work on him.

Ew... I guess we all gotta make sacrifices.